"Life Goes On"

Life Goes On

If I should go before the rest of you
Break not a flower
Nor inscribe a stone
Nor when I am gone
Speak in a Sunday voice
But be the usual selves
That I have known

Weep if you must
Parting is hell
But life goes on
So .... sing as well

Joyce Grenfell
1910-1979

BORRRING --

The Descendants

George Clooney stars in this film that is based on the book The Descendants,

and 'stars' is a word I would choose, because he just totally does. I thought his performance was dazzling. This is totally his movie. He was the greatest choice for the character of Matt King. His face is just perfect for this as so much is told in the character's face.

And, the state of Hawaii is just a beautiful place to make a film! Wow.

George, as Matt King, is married with two daughters, he's well off although he lives below his means and is criticized for that. He's in the middle of a family business deal, when his wife suffers an unfortunate accident and soon everything in his life becomes ~visible~, like it's being shined under a bright, bright light ... and he is not prepared for all that is revealed. He has to wing it, moment to moment. So much is riding on his reaction to what he begins to undercover.

It makes you wonder, how does one handle all that comes from seeing the bright light of truth shined upon the darkest parts of your life. The ones you push down, don't think about, leave for someone else, or just plain ignore, altogether. All I could think of was maybe he felt like he was climbing the outer earth sideways in reversed gravity.

The entire cast of this film is brilliant. I didn't know all these actors, but the new ones are incredible and the old ones are those dependable choices of actors who own their piece of the screen time.

I've never seen such a story. So, multi-layered. I am sad I missed the book.

Someone gave me the idea this is a comedy. No. It's not even really a drama. It is just a really great story and nothing I can say about will explain it as best could be explained.

This is one of the best films I have seen in a long, long while. It's about family, but not just about family, but the fact that you contribute to your family life even if you do nothing. It's about ownership of property, but not just property, but how ownership of property is real responsibility that can come with owning part of a history. It's about responsibility to things that went on before you existed and things that are to come long after you are gone. This is probably what hit me the hardest.

The Descendants is the best movie I have seen this year.

So, yeah, It's All Good

1. My only daughter, 22, is having her tonsils out tomorrow. Those of us who have had our tonsils removed, know that this, as awful as it is, is better than being sick for long periods of time and having to ingest those anti-biotics, which stop working after awhile, and that one can have violent reactions to, which she did, as her whole body became inflamed and rashed and mouth and eyes swollen, omg, it was scary
-- so yeah, there's that --

and since I had my tonsils out back when dinosaurs ruled the earth and Billy Joel was first singing Piano Man, I have forgotten everything, but it's still called horrible surgery, so any current advice would be thought wonderful.

2. I now have a job. A real and actual job that I get paid for working at home. Working at home is not the easiest thing but it beats the other thing like driving to a place, parking, buying clothes other people find tolerable, shoes, etc and all stuff like that. So, I am appreciative to the universe and my brother in law. I asked for the job and he gave it to me. Wow. How often does that happen? Hey, there's a job - I want that one - Can I have it? I can? Thanks ... (Yay.)

3. Facebook. Ummmmm. What do you think? Would you rather just spend your life in short bursts of thoughts and clicks? Are you no longer willing to discuss things in detail until you run out of words in your brain? Ummmmm. Facebook. Good or Bad? Dunno really. Can't decide. It is easy. Short bursts. Type, type, type ... run away, come back later ...oh nobody liked my thought ... ummmmm. I dunno.

4. It's early. But, I do know that I vowed this year to be happy and appreciate every day and so Yay Me because I am so doing that. It's Day 87 and it's terrific as all. I still have my list of wants and needs that I put out to the God of the Universe, which is all the same thing and different at the same time. Yeah, go figure, but yeah, so anyway, It's All Good.

5. I finally got to see Bruce Springsteen live and on stage. How freakin' cool is that? I do not have the measuring stick for that yet, but however, it's way up there.

In 1984 Bruce came to Tallahassee, Florida and I so wanted to go. My husband said the tickets were just to expensive and we could not afford them. Tickets were $35.00 then. I pined that moment all my life. It didn't ruin my life, of course, those things can't, but it never went away. Then when Annie was going to see him in Atlanta, I thought, wow - Atlanta - not that far -- but I still didn't act on it.

Then, something struck me, not sure what but it had something to do with Annie and Nancy and talking about soul and stuff and I sorta got this ~I need To Be Brucified feeling~ and did a quick search and Boom Like That - saw that Bruce was going to be in Tampa - his one Florida stop -- and #2 son lives 25 minutes from Tampa -- and The Universe said -- Go Forth and get your Soul Suit Blessed --

I am so glad I did. That.was.just.righteous. No other like The Boss. No other like feeling like checking a dream thought off your list. So, yeah, there's that.

5. And so yeah, it's all good. And how about you? Finding your way okay on this 87th Day of the Year 2012?

Some things I know for sure:

1. History repeats itself. And it's not always pretty. (Which is making me think people are (stupid)).
2. Things get worse/better/worse/fine//better/good/horrible/okay/great/unexpected wow-what-was-that (like we invaded Normandy and Landed on the Moon)
3. People have a real problem with real change. (Makes them nervous and scared and the center of the brain freezes into dry ice and acts like oatmeal on crack. Not lovely to think about.)
4. Less and less surprises me.
5. People will be kind under most extreme circumstances. Maybe that's why God shocks us Till he rocks us.

But regardless of what I wrote here, just have a great day. If something is bothering you, shake it off. Get a kitty. Eat a Popsicle. Go ahead and get an extra shot of espresso.

Just Live.

Love ya' ~

Miss Roxie

PS - If you looked at all the words I wrote there, and said to yourself . 'phew, that's a lot of words there, uh reading all that?, I'll just skim, ummm,blah,blah,blah,la,la day,22,job,bruce,espresso,live,love,
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The Affordable Health Care Act - Hazy to you?

An article from the Los Angles times from March 24, 2012 addresses some information about the Affordable Health Care Act. A lot of people heard only the words "death panel" and that was enough to freak them out. The information in this article contains facts of which many people are not aware.

Make sure that you read and research things on your own. This is not a time for us to just blindly take in things said 'by people' of a party we may endorse, as the only truth.

We do live in America, after all. Exercise your right to be informed.

I am not saying I understand all of this. But, I am doing my best to try and not just believe someone because 'they said it.' There are so many angry cynics out there. They write blogs, they write newspaper articles, they have TV shows. Don't let them crowd your ability to understand this stuff. Ask your own questions.

The Los Angeles article - Click Here.

Thirft Stores - Where the Good Stuff is

I was reading a blog recently in which the post was making a statement about people in grocery store lines. The statement was referring to the fact that many people who use food stamps are wearing designer clothes and carrying designer purses. And this person sounded offended. (Offended to, by the fact, that the food stamp purchaser might be purchasing lobster claws instead of pink slim hamburger...)

The post set off a litany of responses in which more and more people echoed this horror, of the nerve ,of those on food stamps wearing or carrying something of monetary value. How dare they, oh my ...aren't we just so special to take note of this it all seems to imply ....ha rummmp!

And I wondered ... Have none of these people ever been to a Thrift Store or a Consignment Shop?

Thrift Stores and Consignment Shops are packed full of the donations from lots and lots of people who discard perfectly good expensive stuff!!! And it is sold for cheaper than cheap!! (The soon to be ex wife of Tiger Woods invited one of the local charities here to come into her home before it was demolished and take everything in it as her donation to them. They took everything -- every.thing. Not just the furniture and carpet but also the teak off the walls, the corner boards. Everything they could take was donated and sold for cheap, cheap, cheap.)

One place in my state called World Thrift has a line outside that would beat the premier of Harry Potter on Saturdays and Half Off Senior Tuesday! You name it, it's there! Televisions, VCRs, DVD players, Blu Ray players, expensive Receivers, really, just about any electronic you can name. There's suits and shoes and dishes and Purses and --Designer Clothes--, accessories, blouses, pants, skirts, long and elegant formal party dresses for $5.00!! --- the stuff is packed into the aisles! A lot of it brand new! They must buy overloads from other stores or something.

There are Toys and games and books, lamps, furniture!! Jewelry! Jackets and Coats! Beautiful winter coats! Men, women and children's clothing and the baby clothes and baby items! Galore! Just about anything you can name except maybe paint and food would be available to you at so cheap!

I know people have the right to make comments and remarks all they want. But, I wonder how it is that some people go overboard in showing off their ignorance. I feel like they are feeling sorry for themselves, are lazy, or just need some attention.

In posting this, I fear I sound judgmental. I don't mean to be. I am just so irritated at ignorance when it is spoken out loud for someone to read.

But I have to remember that when someone makes a statement that they mean to tell about another person, they are really telling us about themselves.

Day 49 - Just things In the life

1. Doing Stuff:

No matter what I do, things always move quicker than I think and I never get done what I think I' m going to get done. In the total big picture, not in the small picture. Everything is always in a constant state of flux. It seems that each few months I am having to decide a new direction to go while the old one still exists. I am getting used to it. I am accepting it. It's an animated life. I must be bendable. No point breaking at this point.

2. Finding out stuff:

I've noticed there are so many people who tell me the same thing over and over again. I don't even have to ask them anything. They just say the stuff and then, next time you see them, they say the same stuff over again. I don't know what that is. They just start saying the same stuff like it never happened before. And even if I say, oh yeah you told me this before -- they tell it again. These are people who must love the sound of their voice.

Some people say the same thing exactly how they said it the first time. Some people change it up.

I also noticed there are some people who tell you nothing. At least one person anyway. I married him. He is so refreshing sometimes. You never have to remember anything he tells you. Because he never tells you anything.

3. Asking questions:

There are some people I just don't want to ask a question to about anything:

Some people can't answer a question without telling you their whole life story or the life story of the road you have to go down. I don't like to ask these people things. I lose track of where I am supposed to end up in the answer of the thing. My mind wanders and keeps telling me stuff that has nothing to do with what I am listening to which begins to sound like blah, blah, blah. My granddaughter listens to a little phonics song that says "people go blah, blah, blah." So. It's not only me that feels this way. Sometimes I think, these are people who didn't get enough attention as a child.

Some people never answer the question. They just keep talking about other stuff. I don't like to ask those people things, either. At least I know who these people are now.

Then, there is that person who you ask the question to, and they change the answer while they are answering the question. They might change the answer more than once. It's like they just can't stop thinking and they think that each thing they say is the better thing. I call this not being able to make a decision and have noticed that these are people who like to talk way more than I like to talk. And certainly way more than I like to listen

With these people, I picture a battle of neutrons and electrons vying for first place in a race to their Medulla oblongata. Which is putting up power shields to deflect all this stuff up to the frontal lobe. But then, a bunch of protons and left out feeling neurons jump on the back of all that stuff and just keeps sending messages around in circles. Can't think of anything else that might be happening.

4. What's best:

It's all good. I have learned that for sure. Even if it's bad, it's good. It's okay to say this is bad if you want to, because sometimes it is bad, but you have to understand, that no matter what.it.is....it can always be worse. Always. Not just sometimes. But always. I'll take what I got, and shot from here.

The Four States of Knowledge IMO

The Four States of Knowledge not necessarily in this order:

1. Unconscious ignorance - you don't know what you don't know (large percentage of the population)

2. Conscious ignorance - you know what you don't know. (Unfortunately, many people keep this a secret when they get to this level of awareness and pretend they are on step 4)

3. Conscious mastery-- you don't know what you know, you just know it. (Some people begin to text while driving in this state.)

4. Unconscious mastery - you know what you know. (And most of the time, you can't believe it -- This is the level where 'wtf??' was created.)

Hope over the edges

When you have come to the edge of all the light you know,
and are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown...

Faith is knowing that one of two things will happen:
There will either be something solid to stand on
or you will be taught how to fly."

Patrick Overton

When you come to the place where the road and the sky collide,

throw me over the edge and let my spirit glide ...Jackson Browne

Small, small word

was at the library today with my granddaughter. Her name is Shaylin. I was chatting with one of the mom's in the playroom there who had two girls.

She was from Ireland and has been here for 7 years. I mentioned that my husband was from Ireland. They were born not to far from each other.

As we were leaving, I officially introduced myself and asked her name, she smiled shyly and said, 'I go by Shae' -- I know it's S h a e because I asked her how to spell it, and then she told me the rest of her name, which is 'Lynne.'

Okay, so what are the odds of that!? Shae Lynne!

I asked her then, didn't your ears perk a bit when I would call my granddaughter, 'Shaylin'? And she said she thought she must be misunderstanding me.

I think that is small world stuff on one weird crazy planet!!

Up on the ledge. It's all good.

So I hit this depression a few months ago, with my husband being out of work and no money coming in and trying hard how to figure out how to live, at least I think that is why is happened. And, I am kind of upset with myself for allowing myself to get that low in spirit. But it seemed like it came over me without any control from me. What I decided to do was just let it flow. I kind of did, what in my mind I would call, just went with it.

I did whatever I could to do in the way of practical things to keep the bills down. We were already stripped down from extras in our life, as far as cable tv service or extra things like that go, so there was electric and food and maybe gas that could be controlled.

Insurance is a killer expense. We have stripped down our auto insurance and health insurance (my husband has no health insurance) and we pay heavy out of pocket, but we still went into a little bit of debt; for medical, car and home repairs that could not be avoided. Even though my husband does all the work on our cars and the house, it costs for parts and pieces.

But we made it okay.

And now he has a job. It's working nights and we will have to adjust, but we are thanking God that he has a job.

I am feeling so good now. So much better. Sometimes I wonder, why it is I just feel even all the time? Is there something wrong with my faith? In a way I feel like this time I have come farther up the emotional ladder and might just manage to stay here. I'll see.

Day 2 on the 2012 Countdown

I really think we should keep track of 2012. I think I am going to try. I could possibly lose interest if things turn to generic. But it is an election year. And there is all that Mayan Calendar talk about end of the world stuff, not that we haven't heard that story before...

So, I'm fine. My plan is to get into some deep decluttering. Seriously this time, I am so over this. My sister says my kids don't want my junk (which is a lot of their stuff from all those years of making something on a piece of paper or making a craft for me.) She has moved many times and has what she needs down to a very small amount. And she is happy right now. So, that's what I'm doing.

Since someone stole my bike, I'm trying to will the universe into sending me a new one, a better one.

My husband began working nights (and that's tough when other people who don't work nights live in the same house), we decided on the nights he works he will sleep at my mother in law's next door when he comes home in the mornings and she will sleep here, as he comes in between 4 and 6 AM. Small problem, the bed there belongs to my #2 son and we have to take it to him soon, so I'll have to invest in another bed and I didn't really want to spend money on that but oh well, ya' know? That's the way it goes. Maybe I can write it off as a tax deduction?

And I'm thinking I just go win the lottery. Somebody's gotta do it.

So here we go. Somehow I feel better than I did two weeks ago. I think I stress out over spending and shopping as I don't think I am really a born consumer. I don't begrudge other who do. It's just not something I'm good at. When you don't have money to waste or make a mistake with, it just becomes a pressure.

Anyway, that is what is up for now aside from the sky.