Friday, April 30, 2010

In the mood for thinking...

Anyone can become angry – that is easy. But to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, and in the right way – that is not easy.
— Aristotle, 350BC


(That is Zen...)


Emotional intelligence is the ability to perceive emotions, to access and generate emotions so as to assist thought, to understand emotions and emotional knowledge, and to reflectively regulate emotions so as to promote emotional and intellectual growth.
— Mayer & Salovey


(This is a good thing. Calm yourself and get this way.)


Man can learn nothing except by going from the known to the unknown.
~~ Claude Bernard


(One should never be afraid to check out the beliefs they hold dear. It they are true, the beliefs will hold up to all scrutiny. And besides, who are you that you think you know everything, anyway?)



We have been taught to believe that negative equals realistic and positive equals unrealistic. ~~ Susan Jeffers


(Develop positive thinking. Work on it, want it, go after it. Beat negative thinking down with an ugly stick. You don't have time for that stuff.)

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Too much, too fast, no way

1...Now, here is an article that says multi-tasking is bad for your memory. I'm not sure. I used to have a great memory. Then, I became a multi-tasker. Because I had kids.

How does anyone with children get anything done without multi-tasking? I actually thought I was pretty good at it. But, apparently, I have destroyed my mind.

But, see now! ~ I have a granddaughter! I don't have to multi-task when I'm with her! When I'm with her, that's all I'm doing, and it's great. If anyone asks me to do anything, I just say, 'oh, can't ~ have the baby.' Totally zen.

3... Martyr personalities. They drive me up the proverbial wall. I have some things I have been reading about these types. So, I'll have to sort through and post about them.

You see, someone I like very much, has one of these types of personalities, and I'm trying to work with it. I thought some additional information might help.

Right now, I'm looking at this one link here. Don't have anything definite decided yet. But, I have to learn how to deal with this.

2...What happened to two? I must have done that multi-tasking thing and lost it. I will need to come back and finish this entry.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Monday randomness...

...on a Tuesday~

1. What happened? Medication. Steroids up the nose, third round of antibiotics, Claritin D, Guaifenesin and Dextromethorphan. And, is that like too much? I have decided it is too much. I feel like I'm on speed with an attitude (like a smart a@@, not a good thing).

But, to survive this awful lung infection, which I'm sure is from all the pollen, which I'm sure is a sure sign that the bees are highly ticked at us for ruining their planet, and to keep from going into the hospital, which my choices were coming down to, I agreed to do this regiment ~

but, honestly, I'm cutting back. This is the 6th day. I can't do this for 4 more days. So, one thing I will eliminate today is the Nasal Spray i.e. steroid. I think that is the root of the Irritated Pirate in me. Well, see.


But, on the subject of other things, the Instructions on the pill bottle: Take one tablet twice a day by mouth (in Capital Letters BY MOUTH). (Uh, by ear? no? Nose? I'm not naming any other cavities, but still ...)

2. I was glad to read the Bob Cesca is making efforts to expose Glenn Beck for the sham he really is. I'm glad he's doing this because now everything can be in one place. Bob is keeping track. I just hope some of the people who are being brainwashed by this Animal Circus Act Bleck, will actually find their way to it, and read it.

Actually, I take that back. I wrote, "Animal" - I do not want to insult animals, and really, I don't even want to insult "Circus Acts". Ummm, I'll have to think of something else Generic and Insulting.

And, here's another suggestion, if a person finds their way to the truth about Bleck, please, please, pass it along to others so that this can end.

3. Control Freaks are so annoying.

4. Good coffee can be found in places like Home Goods and TJ Maxx for very good prices. I have heard, though from a lady at a bank. that if you shop at those places you should use cash, because these stores have like a second order of command for dealing with your credit/debit cards, and that means that it's easier for a thief to get a hold of your card (whew).

Just offering that bit of knowledge up ~ use it, don't use it but it happened to my sister in law, so there ya' go.

Now, she does use her credit card/debit card for everything, even a $2.83 purchase through a drive-through, but I'm thinking a lot of people do that, and what happens is that so many purchases get made and they don't realize that those purchases are not theirs for a long time, and believe it or not, by the time they do ~ those thieves are long gone from your card and moving onto another card. (I am not making this up)

Now, the bank did honor a refund to those charges that had been made in a fraudulent manner, and what manner of magic the banks use to know which is which, I do not know ...I'm just reporting in...
but, yeah, my sis in law got her money refunded ...

but the thief, got away with it. He got his stuff mailed to his house, and didn't get prosecuted, as far as we know as this time. Hopefully, the police keep track of these reports and nail these common thieves (Is there such a thing as an uncommon thief?. I really don't know either of those things.)

5. Quote from the Daily Om"

When we choose that which is not best for us, there can be a deep seated part of us that does not want to heal.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

My brain is trying to rest....

...and I am not letting it. I'll try to do that today. Maybe. I love my brain and I want my brain to love me.

Reading is good, but brains are for thinking, right? But, I wonder, if you load them up too much, do they not need time to process? Just relax and look at flowers or the ocean, perhaps?

I'm going to the beach. I was going to take a book, but I'm changing my mind. I'm going to let my brain just float.

"Three Little Words"

"Three Little Words" by Ashley Rhodes. It is a true account written by Miss Rhodes of her life in foster care. A true nightmare that exposes the system as sad, needy and inept, and if one does not become angered at how children are treated, than that reader is unfeeling and probably in need of some counseling. No judgment, just sayin' ...

Miss Rhodes manages to survive this horrific ordeal with her thinking brain in tact. She tells her story through her eyes like an on the scene reporter, as the child who is living a nightmare. A child who is never told the whys or the wherefores of her situation. She is merely shuffled like cattle through the system without one word of explanation. What a stupid system is shown before us~!

But, she triumphs over all of them, and you begin to hope and pray, that children torn from their parents arms can overcome such a heartbreaking tragedy as this, a tragedy that is forced upon them by their neglectful parents and a broken system, you hope they all of them will triumph the same as Miss Rhodes, but unfortunately, that may not be the case.

It reads as if the system has no idea what it is children need. It reads as if Those Who Are Employed by this system are not aware, at all, that the children are what is important in all this,

and that if 'we the people' are going to allot money, to people, to take care of children, we need to make sure Those People are taking care of these children in a proper loving way. Yeah, that's right -- Proper. Loving Way. Come on, people ~ are we not that educated yet? Are we so heartless that we do not know that the number one thing a child needs is love? Tender Loving Care?

Are we so backwards, that we would think, that children from a troubled beginning would not need some Extra love and healthy attention?

This is not a rip against any foster parents who are kind and loving. This is rip against any of those who are not. Shame on them. And, shame on a system created in ln this country that allows such a person to participate in the lives of a child.

You go, Ashley Rhodes. You rock!

(Updated here: I had to go back and make some corrections on this. And, who knows, there could be more ~ I think this third round of anti-biotics has done my drain some bramage.)

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

"The Perpetual American Lynch Mob"

Frank Schaffer has a go at explaining The Perpetual American Lynch Mob.

In case one is not aware of who Frank Schaffer is - well, he was part of the original group of evangelicals who started the extreme far-right movement. He tells you so himself in many of his articles.

He states:

"Dad (my late evangelical leader father Francis Schaeffer) and I did our bit in the 1970s and 80s to pass on the torch of unhinged Lynch Mob hate when we helped create the Perpetual American Lynch Mob's "pro-life" incarnation. That movement -- Our Movement -- was begun by people like us wanting to save babies. It ended up in the swamp of homophobia, hate of the "other" and even inspired the murder of doctors."

I always like to read what Frank has to say. I was attending church at the time that The Right Wing heavies of that day, Jerry Falwell, Francis Schaffer, Pat Robertson, to name a few, were in the forefront in the news a lot. They set their train in motion and it's still running well.

I feel that now it is running with much prejudice, judgment, spanking children, and discrimination. I got off that train really quickly, but hung around in the station for awhile and feel like I got a good idea that things weren't headed anywhere towards Fairville. A lot of people don't want fair. I want fair in law, fair in rights ... leave the judgment issues to God and the laws of our land. And people need to participate to keep the laws fair, and all people should be able to participate.

If I have to err, I'll err on the side of fair as often as I can. I mean, seriously ~ why not? If there be a reason why we should not, perhaps someone can clue me in...

Love all, trust a few, do wrong to none. ~William Shakespeare

Saturday, April 17, 2010

If you can't beat 'em...

...join 'em.
No.
Actually, what I would like to do is smack 'em.

My health insurance coverage just went up $80.00 a month. That's for 3 people. Two healthy young adults and one woman who is Older Than Jackson Browne by 4 days _and_

and I stress the AND ~ a $3,000.00 deductible per person.

Give me a break.

I'm sorry. But that is robbery. Legal Robbery.

Why can't I have what Congress has? Why?

Why not?

"Don't mind criticism. If it is untrue, disregard it; if unfair, keep from irritation; if it is ignorant, smile; if it is justified it is not criticism, learn from it." ~~ The Unknown Source

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

.A day not so bad

1. I received a package in my mailbox from a friend. I didn't expect anything so it was lovely to find a special surprised for myself there. It was some music and a hilarious card! I am grateful for that deep down smile of a moment.

And, added bonus ~ I love the music he sent~! Truly, it's new to me. There is nothing as wonderful as music some days.

2. I almost got hit by a car. Seriously. I was coming out of the UPS store and had just stepped off the curb and this car, in the parking lot area now, trust me, I was not stepping out onto Highway AIA, comes whizzing around this blind corner at about 60 mph. We all know that parking lot speed is about, what 15?

Anyway, she wasn't even on her phone that I noticed, but she sure was in a danged hurry to get to a parking space. Our eyes met and she slammed on her brakes. Then we stared at each other for a few seconds; no one's face giving away anything. She broke the stare with a deep breath and waved me across the street.

Anyway, one of those small moments you are okay with being alive and whole and walking across the parking lot.

3. Went to the dollar store to pick up some sympathy cards. Had to send out four as my mother in law's sister in law just passed after a year battle with cancer. While I was standing in line waiting, a store manager told me I would have to come to the other side.

Okay. No problem.

He was closing out a register, and I had to wait until he was finished doing that. I stood patiently.

An elderly man came up to the counter to the left of me and slammed his little book on the counter and said, 'How much for that?' The cashier, who was standing motionless at this time waiting for the manager to finish her drawer update, asked him what he had wanted. She knew he wasn't in line and wasn't sure what was happening, and he thrust his finger at the book and said commandingly, "The book. How much?"

She registered the request in her brain, the other man still clearing and setting up her new register, and she answered him, "One dollar and seven cents. Do you want this?"

He didn't answer. The cashier wasn't sure what he wanted,yet.

"Are you next in line?" she asked, knowing full well he was not but trying to be polite, and knowing full well that I knew, and the people behind me knew, he was not.

He didn't answer. I'm not sure if he was embarrassed or what he was thinking ...but as she kept glancing at me, I said, "It's fine. Go ahead and ring him up."

She began, "But you're ..."
"It's alright." I said.

She said again to him, "Do you want the book?"

He said how much again, she answered again, he fumbled through for the money trying to give her the exact change, he couldn't, so he settled on a dollar and a dime, while he grunted at that. Somehow this bothered him.

After he got his change, he just turned and left. The cashier turned and looked at me. I had a slight smile on my face which she probably could not interpret, and she began to apologize over and over, but I told her, "Really, it's okay. If he was young, I might have said something, but seriously, it's okay."

She talked about how she has to look out for her customers, that she needs to make sure they are treated right ... I told her again, it's okay, I'm fine. Because I am standing here with 4 sympathy cards. My husband's uncle lost his wife and his 3 cousins lost their mother, and the elderly man's inability to communicate his thoughts and lack of manners at that moment, just met nothing in the way of hurting my feelings.

But I sincerely appreciated the kindness of the cashier.

#. Watered my plants
5. Pet my cats
6. Talked with my family
7. Spent most of the day with my granddaughter.

Monday, April 12, 2010

So true, so true ... to me.


Daily Decisions ~

What I am experiencing at this moment is the result of choices and decisions made in the past; what I will experience in the future depends on choices and decisions I make now. Happiness is a daily decision.

from the site of Thought for Today
...

Yes, you got up this morning, got out of bed ~ it was you that was making a decision before your feet hit the floor ~ good day, bad day ~ ummmm ~

Would you take a little advice from one who is Older Than Jackson Browne? Choose Wisely. Choose a Good Day. Choose to be Happy in this Day.

I believe in God. And, every morning, before I get out of bed, I thank God. For whatever it was he did for me the day before. There are many things, of course, that I probably don't even know about, but I know he was there and did something to keep me safe and now able to wake, this one more day.

One of the things my God helps me do is find things ~ seriously. There is nothing spooky about this at all.

I learned through studying science that everything that goes on around us is in our brain. It's all recorded somewhere. All persons record all things going on around them in their brain. Whether you are a spiritual person, or not, your brain is still a functioning organ that records all you see and hear.

It doesn't, however, put everything in a spot right in the front, the way I file things on my desk. You know, that big pile I have where I put it all right where I can see it. No, your brain delivers it to different places where it thinks it should. And, that connection is a personal one between you and your brain. Every one's brain works a different way, okay, maybe that was more a personal thought than a scientific one, but still, very close to truth.

So, when I misplace something, anything, I ask God to please help me find that thing, to please help me set my eyes on it. I give God as much information as I can about it, what it looks like, what I need it for and when ~~ and I am here to tell you ~ I always find whatever it is ... Always.

Because God knows what is going on in my brain. He can clearly see where I put that object, and apparently, God does not mind stopping his busy day to help me find this missing thing, and I appreciate that so much.

Just as an aside thought - I believe that God is here for us, personally, to help. I do not believe that God is here to smite my neighbor for not believing what I believe, for being different than me, for being just what God made him to be.

Oh, and one more thing ~ I believe my God can help me find my way back to happiness, every time, if that should be my choice. Everyday I make one. Everyday I choose. I want the happiness, so I choose that. Thank you, God.


The feeling remains that God is on the journey, too. ~Teresa of Avila

God's will is not an itinerary, but an attitude. ~Andrew Dhuse


Have a nice day~!

Friday, April 09, 2010

"Frackles" ~ Jon Stewart

Had Fox News decided to lie?

~ decided? ~ is that a good word? I'm not sure, if they decided or not, but they lied ~ mislead? could it be mislead? I think, myself, the word would be lied ~~ about the information regarding President Obama, Russia, Ronald Reagan, and the Nukes ...

I just read the Huffington Post and found this article entitled "Stewart Rips Fox News for inaccurate reporting on Nuclear Arms Treaty."

The clip from The Daily Show can be found on the link below. Again, Jon Stewart and staff is left to inform us of the exaggerations, stories and tales of Sean Hannity, Sarah Palin, and Newt Gingrich

Here is it ~ Your Seven Minutes and 12 Seconds
- Fabrication at it's best. If you don't believe the Daily Show, check your facts yourself, and whatever you do, don't believe Fox News. That is just this writer's opinion.

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

"Waiting for stuff to happen..."

...so my husband just said to me as he walked by. Huh?

If everybody contemplates the infinite instead of fixing the drains, many of us will die of cholera. ~John Rich


I had no idea what he was talking about. I was reading someone's blog. I love reading. I read lots of stuff - books, magazines, message boards, blogs (I love blogs) and much other stuff, newspapers, notes on the side of the road ... oh, and the stuff he is waiting to happen has to do with a virus scan thing he is doing on my daughter's computer, so he just told me.

Now my husband just asked me, 'do I want to go camping in the Keys?' to which I said, 'no', as I do not want to drive for 5 hours to sleep on the ground. I can sleep on the ground out in my front yard. I live near the beach, so, no. My family does go to the Keys every summer (we grew up around Key West) and we sleep in a very nice hotel at a kid friendly resort. That's lovely. But, 'no', I will not drive for 5 hours and sleep on the ground. (I would fly on a plane to Barcelona to see Jackson Browne in concert, but, that's not what he asked me. ha.!)

Life is one long process of getting tired. ~Samuel Butler


I am recovering from pleurisy. It is not fun. I don't really feel good. But, whatever, everyone has to get something some time. What I dislike most about it is not being able to pick up my granddaughter. She is just the most wonderful thing.

To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting. ~e.e. cummings, 1955


Today I took two of my nephews to Barnes and Noble. Oh my gosh, we had a lovely, relaxing time! We had a tea and a treat and read and read and read for three hours. Just sat there together and read. No talking, just reading. It was wonderful. One nephew bought a book. I didn't have enough money to buy anything today, but I will another day. We had thought about going to the library, but then the boys always get on the computer, so they decided Barnes and Noble's. I was glad.

My nephews (and great nephews) and nieces range in age from 38 to 6 ~ there are 12 of them. My granddaughter is 16 months. My kids are 33 to 20. And I spend time with all of them. It's like jumping in and out of universes. It's like visiting other planets. They talk so fast! Their minds are full of new and exciting stuff, and old stuff, too. And, what really makes me laugh, is when they learn something new, and they are so surprised that I know that~! Of course, they are constantly telling me stuff that is new to me, too, I can't lie about that. I enjoy it, though. I love learning new stuff. I really should write down everything the 6 year old says. I am going to be sad when he makes that final cross over into the 'real' world.

I will be looking for my granddaughter to keep that portal open ...

Updates on the Lydia Schatz's case

This is an update on the Lydia Schatz's case.

~~~Part one of this series on child abuse features the Lydia Schatz case and the connection to Michael Pearl and his teachings.

I haven't figured out how to link the video, so I have just linked to thatmom, and hope you can view it.

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

When you ...

When you think your kind words are all wasted ...

When you want to remember that our childrens feelings will always matter ...

When you think you are the only one who suffers ....

When you wonder if it's ever too late ...

When you think you no longer have a voice, think of who has, and then speak up, use yours to tell a darling child that some messages out there are so wrong.


God offers to every mind its choice between truth and repose. Take which you please - you can never have both.
~~~~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Monday, April 05, 2010

Message to the Tea Partyist

Geesh, honest, I am not really like all about politics, but lately my mind seems to find keep finding things that get me thinking about them ~

The following is copied and pasted from the internet from a site in a comments section at the Huffington Post. I thought it was very good food for thought. And I am hungry for understanding of what is going on in America today, as so much of it just does not make sense to me!

so here it is ~~ I take no credit for it, but I am not going to be shy about passing it along:


You didn't get mad when the Supreme Court stopped a legal recount and appointed a President.

You didn't get mad when Cheney allowed Energy company officials to dictate
energy policy.

You didn't get mad when a covert CIA operative got outed.

You didn't get mad when the Patriot Act got passed.

You didn't get mad when we illegally invaded a country that posed no threat to us.

You didn't get mad when we spent over 600 billion (and counting) on said illegal war.

You didn't get mad when over 10 billion dollars just disappeared in Iraq.

You didn't get mad when you found out we were torturing people.

You didn't get mad when the government was illegally wiretapping Americans.

You didn't get mad when we didn't catch Bin Laden.

You didn't get mad when you saw the horrible conditions at Walter Reed.

You didn't get mad when we let a major US city, New Orleans, drown.

You didn't get mad when we gave a 900 billion tax break to the rich.

You didn't get mad when the deficit hit the trillion dollar mark.

You finally got mad when the government decided that people in America deserved the right to see a doctor if they are sick. Yes, illegal wars, lies, corruption, torture, stealing your tax dollars to make the rich richer, are all okay with you, but helping other Americans...oh hell no.

Sunday, April 04, 2010

Teabonics?

I was just visiting over at boremetotears ...
and read about Teabonics.

Are we serious here? Seriously ... Teabonics?

I have no explanation.
I do not understand what is going on.
I can't wait to see how, in the name of all things normal, that the history books are going to deal with this period of sheer ignorance.
Are they going to post these photos in the history books?

These people say they are going to take America back? Looks like they already are...going backwards that is, to a time when we couldn't think and couldn't spell.

Speechless. I am .... speechless.

Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt.
~Abraham Lincoln

Friday, April 02, 2010

Wicked awful...

...that's how I feel. Got this cold or something, and I wish to thank the general public. People are so free with their germs. They just cough, cough, cough anywhere and everywhere. Gosh, people, can you not use some real common sense? Cough into your sleeve or better yet stay home. And stop sneezing in public, too. Idiots. (I have a tendency to use the word Idiot when I don't feel well...)

No matter where you go or what you do, you live your entire life within the confines of your head. ~Terry Josephson




Wouldn't it be funny if Wolf Blitzer worked for Fox News? They could call it the Animal Channel.


Why do people say that wine has to breath? Who is out there trying to make wine die?


Is Glenn Beck only here on this earth for Jon Stewart. Jon Stewart is the only one who can explain him really well. And why is Glenn Beck so Grossly Bigoted? Just askin' ...He says some very strange stuff, IMHO. I just don't get him, at all, not even a little twinky winky bit.

The fly that doesn't want to be swatted is most secure when it lights on the fly-swatter.
~G.C. Lichtenberg



Jon Stewart is on the Daily Show with more real fake news than anyone. And, why is it called the Daily Show if it's not on daily?


Yesterday, I told someone the (very old) joke about 'not driving on driveways, and not parking on parkways,' and they said, 'wait...what?' I felt like I had just dropped into another universe.


I know I am Older Than Jackson Browne, but seriously, I am stepping into another zone on the spectrum. I am looking around and seeing a lot of stupid people doing and saying a lot of stupid stuff. What is up with that? What are these people reading? And why are they texting while they drive?

Do we need legislation on reading materials to mark something 'drivel' 'lies' 'exaggerated stories' "stuff messing with your mind to scare you', or 'just plain bull-hockey' and, 'do not read this while driving? Whoops! Even musing that thought makes me an 'ist' person! (You can fill in the social-fasci-mark-whatever- in front of the 'ist').

The obscure we see eventually. The completely obvious, it seems, takes longer.
~Edward R. Murrow

I have to laugh at the 'government is getting to big' comments....well, duh~! -- the population is getting big-ger, so ergo, more representation, more ideas from our representatives, more legislation, more needs, and more people trying hard to find ways to do shady things (and that's on both sides - the politicians and the people. And the worse things happen when the politicians and the corporations get together! Oh wait, they gave that a name, right? -- lobbying? ...) But all that, does not mean, We Cannot Have Health Care for Everyone. Grow up, people. Learn to be kind to your neighbor.

I have always thought the actions of men the best interpreters of their thoughts. ~John Locke

Okay ~ blather, blather, insult, idiot ...I don't feel well, and should not be spewing my thoughts out at this time. I think I'll go smell some roses or something. Or maybe study an ant mound.

We are more often treacherous through weakness than through calculation.
~Francois De La Rochefoucauld



Alice came to a fork in the road. "Which road do I take?" she asked.
"Where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat.
"I don't know," Alice answered.
"Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter."
~Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland


Thursday, April 01, 2010

My Friend Doug Barnett

Do you like music? Music that will make you smile? Then check out Doug Barnett~! I love this guy.

You will find that I have written a song with Doug called End of The Dirt Road with me furnishing the thoughts and Doug putting his magic on making it a real song~ by adding the (great) music and some very, very important lyrics to complete my ever wondering thoughts.

One of the coolest things that ever happened to me was meeting Doug over at Jacksons Cafe.

I guess we've been friends, gosh ~ about 7 years now? I don't know. But he is one of the most clever people I have ever met!

Have a great day, Doug!!

A Thought for Thursday 2010


Exercise and Diet

Unhealthy lifestyles are rooted in the mind and seeded in the soul. The spiritual exercise of the mind involves taking the mind out of the physical body and to the subtle, angelic body of light and then to our state of being a soul - a sentient point of light and power. As for diet control, pure thoughts are the healthy diet for the mind.

Creative thoughts are like vitamins and
positive thoughts provide proteins that build will power, while thoughts of serving others are like carbohydrates, which provide energy for the mind.

...From the Thought for Today site.

I really enjoy this site. I have them email something to me every day.

I have grown up in the home of negativity and fear. And I am "so done with that" as the youth of today might phrase it. I was fortunate enough to come close to the knowledge of what positive emotions can do for your life while I was parenting my children. They seem to be doing okay. They seem balanced.

Balance of the mind, body and spirit is important to me. I think if one leans to far in either direction, then things will become out of focus. And if one finds themselves leaning, one should stay quiet, don't comment, don't become engaged ...Relax and let your mind find it's way back to balance.

Be the grasshopper until you become the Zen Master. The Zen Master does not concern himself with which way the hose is facing, only that he has the hose in the hand and knows the knowledge of how to use it will come if one is patient long enough.